Fear

It's been 13 years since my last trip to an ER, it's a scary experience I wish I never had to re-live... turns out my luck is not that great.

Today I took a trip down memory lane, the fear, the anxiety, and the result...

13 years ago my arm was ripped open by broken glass. I asked my mom on the way to the hospital, "Am I going to die?" Granted I was 9 years old and didn't know much, but it's scary. I've had my fair share of run-ins with death, pain, and general discomfort but the ER is the pinnacle of stupid decisions, a pinnacle I hope I never reach again.

This time I didn't ask her that question, but at the rate my heart was pounding and the general discomfort I was feeling, I was far more scared this time around. They took my blood pressure, hooked me up to machines, monitored me. They couldn't find anything

Shortness of breath, light-headedness, and chest pain that's what I told them...

Thankfully all that doesn't mean anything. Who knows what caused my pain, but it's scary reliving your past and potentially my future, hopefully a distant future.

*breathe*

I'm scared right now, my heart is racing and pounding, my chest is in pain and I'm short of breath. I'm waiting for my train to get me home as quick as possible. I'm trying not to fall asleep, Im trying to calm down but it's not working.

I'll update more about my trip to Tampa when I feel more up to it. I'll post as soon as I can

- JP aka StereoTyKe aka J-Pill

I Don't Wanna Grow Up.....

I'm at another crossroads. I'm sitting here at the JetBlue terminal in JFK about to take off for my first business trip. Right now, I'm feeling the standard feelings of fear and excitement, but I'm also feeling anxiety over the fact that I'm an adult and I have work... and ... it's just weird.

More will come as I go through this experience, as will pictures. I may be going down for business, however there is Gasparilla... which is a PIRATE CONVENTION!

In Da Heightz 2

So this past Saturday, my boy CikMode threw the sequel to his jam, In Da Heightz. I had heard a lot of hype about this jam, considering there were 50-60 crews signed up. Now in theory this sounds like a good idea, but at what happened was 515 people packed into a tiny rec center. Now don't get me wrong this was a fun jam, but I would've like a little more room for cyphers.

Props to Cik for throwing a dope jam, and doing a damn good job at crowd control... you try organizing a mass wave of people and see if you think it's easy. Good seeing everyone as well! I know I've been out of the scene for a while but I'm trying to get back, and hopefully with better results than my lackluster performance (shown below).



So I wasn't intending on competing because a bunch of people bailed on me, but I got a call at the last minute from a friend who needed a battle partner so I joined him. Maybe I wasn't in the battle mindset, maybe I just didn't hit my sets, either way... it wasn't my best attempts. But you live and you learn... what do you think?

I Never Knew I Was Looking

It's tough realizing your life is out of balance. It's similar to anyone with a chronic problem; the first step is realizing you have a problem. The last week and a half has been rather tumultuous; issues with my health, dealing with a long distance relationship, beef with friends and family. And funny enough, from all this tumult, I discovered I needed... No I want to be better.

Better in what sense you may ask? I believe anyone who is content with themselves automatically has a problem. We were taught that everyone is special and everyone is perfectly fine how they are currently. Well I'm here to say that's a load of c**p.

Think of your best friends... The gross majority of them will have something you wish you could change. Not necessarily something that is a personal viewpoint but something that you know would benefit future interaction between your friend and people they haven't yet met. For example I can say one of my friend needs to be a little more responsable about cleanliness and another needs to shorten his time spent preparing to get ready, you know who you are...

But sorry, I digress. The biggest issue which I needed resolved was that my life was out of balance. How? Through a series of events which resulted from me not doing what I do best: speaking my mind in a crude, sometimes mean, but honest fashion. I've grown up a bit from the terror that spawned a facebook group entitled "JP calm the f**k down" but I cannot let my thoughts be ignored for the sake of avoiding conflict, it's neither healthy nor right.

Life is getting better and my general mood has improved as has my health over the last two weeks. This weekend is a big competition weekend so lots of pictures and hopefully videos to follow. Word


- JP aka StereoTyKe aka J-Pill

To My Friends: Listen Up

I'm fed up...

I'm not sure if I'm going through withdrawal, I'm not sure if I'm just sad, I'm not even sure if there's anything wrong with me; but what I do know is something feels off.

Last night was my best friend's birthday. A group of us went to get the best Fried Chicken in the World then went to a bar in the LES and to be honest up until the bar I was having a lot of fun, but something was still off. Admittedly, I was driving and didn't drink so some people were being belligerent drunks so that didn't add to my enjoyment, but I'm tired of being complacent. So let me start here with this simple question: What benefit do you gain from me drinking?

If you don't know already, I cannot hold alcohol for s**t. Yes I get drunk quickly but when I finally get over it, I GET SICK. And when I get sick... I don't want to party anymore, I want to go home and sleep. You may need to drink to have a good time and let loose, but I don't need to drink to let loose. Just LEAVE ME ALONE, if you want to have fun with me, just don't tell me what to do.

I'm sorry I'm using this as a forum because there are a lot of people who I need to express this to in person and normally I don't direct these posts to the people I know. But I'm just so tired of people telling me how to act. It pisses me off more than anything.

otherwise, go about your business: word

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NBA JAM!

I was browsing through the interwebs this morning and happened to come across an epic story this morning.

NBA JAM IS COMING BACK!

Read and be happy!

Things found in Colorado pt 2

Surreal

Yesterday, two important things occurred in my life. The first being: I strained a neck/shoulder muscle for the umpteenth time, and the second being: Problem Child asked me to try out for Problemz Kru.

This is an epic moment because since I started breakin, I wanted to be part of a crew; Having that crew being PK is just gravy because I grew up idolizing their members.

But, now, in the twilight of my breakin career, I don't know if I can commit to something of this magnitude. A lot of things to consider...

But this is still one of the coolest things to ever happen to me!


- JP aka StereoTyKe aka J-Pill